Hi. whenever I lost, here I come.

you know.. i am so sick of such life...
now that attachment ended, i've got nothing to do nearly everyday.
going overseas is just the key of distraction.
but forever it comes back to the square one cause i am always back to this f up city.

why do you have to SUDDENLY appear in my life?
i have decided. not gonna tell ANYONE about you anymore. yes, you.
idk why but... it's just a struggle within myself.
used to observe you quite a bit even before we became close. to me, you were one of the top.... idk what word to describe hahahaha but it was all positive thoughts about you. after you telling me how you felt THAT NIGHT, i couldn't let it go.

kay, i really dk how to elaborate more about you but whatever i did for you, it's truly from my heart and although the age gap between us might be a bit uh huh but still,

你至少是我想要找的人..
我已經喜歡上你 但昨晚你突然說 不要太過喜歡你. 你知道我此刻的心情是怎樣嗎？
好想 不想放開你... :'(

So, Hello. after months again.
idk why i suddenly feel like blogging again but maybe, i just need to rant some stuff. maybe, not rant. just, emo. LOL. sigh.

honestly, what do i really want? anyone has any idea? idk, man. i myself dk what i really want.
sitting in an outdoor area now, the wind blowing strongly, this feeling.. so new yet so old. so nice yet so weird.

when we first accepted each other, did we ever thought we might last forever? why did we accept each other in the first place? because it was both our first? or because you think i was nice, kept talking to you and i was feeling rather happy that someone actually 'likes' me at that time as i never ever had that feeling in my past 17 years. how could we even last till one year plus.

all the conflicts, all the problems, i caused them. yes, i admit it. i'm sorry. honestly, i'm feeling damn regretful. i never truly thought about how you felt. i thought it was alright.. i thought going out with my friends, just hanging out with them and lepak around, it was fine. i never spare a thought about you, being at home, alone, having nothing to do but just staring at your computer and probably thinking of me at that time. it was a complete torture, am i right? until you couldn't take it, probably you feel that there's someone out there who's better for you.. you used to like her before liking me and you liked her back after losing feelings for me. i thought you were a bastard but now i am wrong. yeah, i'm the one at fault. it was all me. i didn't know how to treasure you well.. i didn't know how to keep you by my side. i'm sorry if during that period i was being so childish, a stupid girl who tried to push blame to you when i was the one at fault from the beginning.

but. but, i wonder why, each time i look back at our photos, i think back of those memories, those moments.. your face, your fats, your hugs, they still feel so new and fresh. why at times am i still imagining you standing in front of me and me running up to you giving you a tight hug. i miss those fats of yours and the smell of you. sounds weird and wrong but yeah. it's truly awesome. thinking about all these recently and i actually dreamt of you nights ago. why did i even dream of you again? it's been half a year.. you mean i haven't fully gotten over you when i actually told you i did? i really dk.. forever lost.

maybe it was the second you who made me think of the first you.
somehow, you two do have similarities. fats. lol.

but do i truly like you? do i truly have feelings for you? or isit again just because you like me first and you're so caring and so nice to me that's why i feel that i can rely on your shoulder?
i've always thought of finding one like you, i think 'ah beng' are actually really nice guys, to a certain extend. i'm loving the fact of how much you love your family. plus plus bonus points. or rather, you two. even both of you love each other so much, sometimes i think you two look more like a couple together. haha. but yes, feels great knowing you're working hard despite not having high education, trying to earn a living. that's what i see in you. maybe duh, everyone also thinks and do the same but just take it as i witnessing clearly how much you are working hard for yourself.

however, it's obvious that we are both different world people. yeah, you agree too.
how long do you think i can accept my the other half who goes out till iwonderwhattime with his brother and friends. i am totally in your shoes now of how you felt towards me in the past. i can't accept and control for long. i don't expect you to change for me either. it's never worth it. how long do you think you can change for me? nah, never gonna work out.
you smoke, fine. honestly, i think i am alright with that, for now. just don't smoke in front of me so much because i know i'll get pissed for no reason. haha.
at times you have to go drinking. you said you dw to but you have to. alright, go ahead. but you and i both know that i am actually not happy with it. i am always thinking so much.. what will happen to you if you are drunk?

awesome example like that night. receiving a call from your bro at 330am, telling me you're dead drunk, you fought with him and ask me to call you to go to sleep. first time in my life i am feeling this way.. it was seriously so scary. it was actually a minor accident but to me, you know how i felt? you know how sad i was when i heard your mumbling voice on the phone? this isn't just my kind of thing. the life of yours and the life of mine, it's different.
you have a bunch of awesome friends to always hang out and go party party with. i'm just far away waiting for your text, thinking where and what you are doing. i never wanna be a burden so i always ask you to go ahead to get busy with first and your reply will be 'okay.' you know how moodless i feel? i guess you don't. kay, never mind.

whenever i wanna share my problems or worries with you, idk why but your replies it's always so vague. you never really once go deep into what i really wanna hear from you.. except when we are talking about problem between us. so, do you truly understand me? why can't i get replies of what i wish to hear? am i expecting too much for you? honestly, i doubt. i think it's just you and me. we are different world people. therefore i ask, can different world people even get into a relationship and will they ever last?

i guess i'm just a girl who never wants to be alone. i want a guy who can be constantly there for me, texting me, cheering me up, lending me his shoulder and his fats to hug tightly when i need to. take it as i am selfish then. i won't deny i am. very selfish indeed.

still, i am grateful to God or whoever that actually brought us so close together. to make me once feel that how wonderful an 'ah beng' can be. really, i thank you. i thank you, for having feelings for me. idk whether your feelings for me will ever last but yeah, still, thanks.
hanging out with you two twins just make me feel so happy and i just wished i can have brothers like you two.
freaking obvious of who i am talking about, yeah.
still till today, there's no conclusion.
is there even a beginning for us? have i fully gotten over you? am i just relying on you because i know you're there for me at times when i need someone?
I WONDER.
okay, awesome life story of mine. one day, i'll film them into a drama. HAHAHAH. dramatic life. I AM HATING IT.

goodbye.

the cute girl in the photo above is saying hello again. (LOOLLLOLLOL, kidding.)
but i guess i am actually hello to nobody. ahhahaha.
life's awesome but sucky as well.
blah. idk what to blog about but i should really start making the habit of blogging again as attachment is getting closer and by then, i'll need to blog on Mel or whatever shitzz stuff we need to do.
CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS COMING WEEK TO END. (yeah, for some reason)

wahhh, cool right. HAHAAAHAAHAHA. 不要臉!

how many freaking months since i posted. wooooo.
nice. HELLO.
so, heh.
LIFE SUCKS.

but I ROCK (;



the strength of my current life. llamafat! (:

500th post.
anyway, just gonna post up what i submitted for my DPG projects (y)

Project 1 theme - My feelings

'Who Am I?' I always love to question myself. A human being. A normal 18 year old Singaporean girl.

But truly deep down inside, it's not just about that. Perhaps many would say I am emotional blahblah... Maybe, maybe not. HAHAHA.

I guess I am just a girl who loves to think and reflect about my life and myself (:

Very often in my life, I am tied up by my surroundings... Friendships, relationships & family...

Every small little issues of those mentioned above affects me greatly in life which leads me being afraid of moving on in life at times.

Just like this little kitten.. It's being tied up, unable to have it's freedom, afraid of making it's first step out of the 'hole' it is in.

ISO 125, 50mm, f/1.8, 1/50sec, AV, Spot, 0 EV

& again, still afraid. Unsure of when it's safe to come out. Just like myself, always afraid of getting hurt by people or things therefore by hiding as a way of protection.

ISO 100, 50mm, f/1.8, 1/125sec, 0 EV, AV, Spot

I am covering my facial expressions, not letting others know how I look and feel but there's still a difference between me and this boy and that is, he's doing it without a hidden identity, unlike me.

ISO 1600, 80mm, f/5.0, 1/25sec, AV, Pattern, 0 EV

I wish... I can lay down my feet, sit down on a patch of grass and let out all my emotions...

ISO 100, 40mm, f/4.5, 1/250sec, 0 EV, AV, Pattern

I wish... I can be as innocent as how this kid looks.

Even without giving out a smile, others would smile by looking at him (:

(that's the reason why I love kids. hahah)

ISO 1600, 110mm, f/5.6, 1/125sec, 0 EV, Pattern, AV

I wish... I can clap and laugh anytime I like without any worries.

ISO 1600, 50mm, f/1.8, 1/250sec, 0 EV, AV, Pattern

I wish... I can play freely and able to express myself fully.

ISO 100, 135mm, f/5.6 1/500sec, 0EV, TV, Pattern

All I ask for, is tender care and love. That's when I know, I am 'THE REAL ME'.

ISO 100, 50mm, f/1.8, 1/320sec, 0EV, AV, Spot

However, yes, there are always such love in our lives. We just have to wait and search for our own happiness (:

I am glad for him or anyone who's always here for me, giving me strength to move on in my life...

ISO 400, 187mm, f/5.6, 1/25sec, 0EV, AV, Pattern

SORRY IF THIS IS SUPER EMOTIONAL BUT I LIKE. HAHAHA.

Project 2 theme - Country & City (contradictions)

My main purpose of this theme is to show the contrast between the new and old Singapore therefore most of my photos will be places or things that are hardly seen in Singapore these days.

We are living in a fast paced society. In Singapore, everything requires speed. In school, during work and everyday lives...

The red lines shows how fast the cars are moving just like us everyday.

Also, the purpose of this photo - 'either way' sign, infering that in life, we MUST make a decision, either the left or the right. Without a stand, it will bring us nowhere.

There's always a beginning for everything. These were the kampong/village days where people stayed in.

Location: Palau Ubin

Slowly, as it's developing, road signs were also bulit. This is the LAST kampong left in our City.

Don't be mistaken, the number 1954 isn't the year it was bulit but rather, postal code in Singapore in the past. ONLY FOUR DIGITS compared to SIX today.

Location: stated in photo

People started constructing different transportations such as trains...

This is the railway station located at Tanjong Pagar which brings us to various parts of Malaysia.

[the railway station is closing down in July 2011]

*special effects on the sides - using the 'door' as frame*

Adding on, more communication methods were introduced such as mail box so that we can connect with the outside world.

People started to set up their own business to earn a living giving an example of a back alley barber shop.

*uncle waiting for customers.. hahah*

Location: Chinatown

Random photo showing a middle age man reviving his childhood days, siting on a old metal swing.

See the smile on his face? Feeling so happy returning to where they used to stay (Kampong).

Location: Lorong Buang Kok

As we age, we die.

This is a TRADITIONAL chinese furneral.

These days, coffins will be placed in the van and family members will follow at the back whereas seen in the photo below, people carry the coffin using bamboo along the road.

Location: Chinatown

SUPER RANDOM photo to end off.

Showing my love for this country after touring around 3 whole days for this project.

*SEE THE SPECIAL HEART EFFECT ON THE CHRISTMAS TREE? :D*

THE ENDDDD.

SO ANNOYING. spams all over my tagboard and I am lazy to remove it. argh, stop all the stupid spams man.

OKAY, THINGS I WANT TO GET THIS NEW YEAR:
1) Polaroid Camera
2) Upgrade to 60D real soon!
3) Drum Set
4) Jap Spitzzz [i am waiting... HAHA]
5) A SECOND HAND CAR WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE :(

but YAY, number 1 to 3 is kinda possible now. 100bucks for polaroid, selling off my 500D and buying 60D around 800plus? drum set... HAHH 3K? okay, idk.
I have got around 2K in my hands now. HEH HEH. I ROCK

HAPPY CNY! :D

DAY ONE.
1) went to daddy's side for visiting & lunch
2) jennifer's ahma's house
3) boon lay visiting
4) HOME
5) auntie winnie's house & dinner.

Drove from ECP to home, home to Paya Lebar and Paya Lebar back to home again! :D:D ESTIMA SOMEMORE EH. HAHAHA I AM PROUD OF MYSELF. YAY ME.

DAY TWO.
rotttttt attttt homeeeee until 230pm.
1) auntie jenny's house
2) auntie mary's house
3) grand auntie's house
4) uncle mong's house for steamboat!

DROVE FROM PASIR RIS TO HOME AGAIN! 100km/h this time. SHIOK! but kenna horn once ah :/ HHAHA.

OHHH, skyped with Fabian in the afternoon TO SHOW ME HIS COUSIN'S SONS. OMGGG I NEVER KNEW HE GOT MIX BLOOD COUSINS. $#^$%&$%# SO COOL AND CUTE. I also want manzz. TIME TO FIND MYSELF AN ANGMOH BOYF/HUSBAND. HAHAHAHAHA.

HAHAHA time for Baby Jervin first! :D

I mean, look at the bottom left hand corner box, with that cute girl ;) hehehee.

LOOK LOOK. THOMAS. aawww, I WANT TO PINCH HIM!!!! the way he talks, SO CUTE ALSO. Singaporean + American accent. LOL (y)


THOMAS & WILLIAM. his elder brother.


SOOOOO CUTEEEEEE. Okay, I need to stop :/
Oh, I MISS 128 too. Sighhhh, no more seeing him in future, unless I go BBDC for fun. LOL SIAO.
Another long day tomorrow. sighh.

Sorry Gerald, I am lazy to post the picture. heh, give me time.
Hahahahaha, I totally made someone guilty ttm last night. I guess you will read my blog. Sorry for doing so, that's all I can say..

OHHHHH HAPPY CNY! :D

& a super random video of my dearest luozhixaing.


HIS DANCE NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM. AHAHAHAHA.

Okay, happy cny once again and I am totally not prepared to go for visiting. LOL.

IT'S FEB.
yeah, 2 awesome guys asked me to blog on the same day therefore I shall do a short one. HAHAHA. HI.

Jan was kinda normal, okayokay to me.
I will just randomly blog what I can recall and remember.

- STUDIO PHOTOGRAPHY IS FUNNN. I like. LOL.

- FREAKING DK WHAT TO BLOG, seeing my previous, I HAVE YET TO GET JEREMY'S PRESENT! :/

- CLASS NIGHT PHOTOG LAST FRIDAY! Not bad. Pinnacle and Merlion area. after shoot, my official first visit to pub :D with LECTURERS (Kim Lau and Foo YY) and whole class somemore!

- MONDAY was GMTA steamboat at my place! Better than I expected. hheheee. thanks guys (:

- Gerald wants me to mention his name and that we quarreled a few times. HAHA WTH DAMN STUPID but GERALD, THIS IS FOR YOU(:

there you go, another one. HAHAHAHA.

- OHHH, FINALLY VISITED FARMWAY AFTER A LOOOOOONG TIME! :D soooooo nice. I WANT A DOG! HAHAHA, Fabian Ng, I AM WAITING! ;)

- IKEA and HARRYS again last night! awesome date out with Jeremy, Sam, Jayni and Nick!
Crave for meatballs so badly lately, idk why. But the laska sucks.

SAW THIS AT IKEA! WE COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING! HAHAHA. damn badddd but really looks like Goh Siew Chuan :/

- YAY finally tried wearing contacts for the first time on Monday!!! :D Not badddd, different feeling.

- LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I PASSED MY DRIVING TODAY. HAHAHAHAHAAH. CONGRATS ME. YES I KNOW THANKS. although only auto lah :((((

OH SHOULD I GO TAIWAN DURING MARCH/APRIL?!?!! TELL ME YES OR NO! SIGHHH. I REALLY WANT TO.

Sigh, idk why am I feeling this way about you, treating you this way. Please don't ask me who. If you think it's you, then it is. IDK LAH! sucks.

FIRST POST IN 2011.

Helloooo, first week of school, normal.

MY LIFE IS GETTING FREAKING BORING.
I was home early on FRIDAY. I can't believe it and I went for dinner ALONE. SIANNN.
Need to chiong driving starting from now but I am totally lazy to go -.- sigh. I REALLY HOPE IT WILL COME TRUE. Pray for me. Hehehee.

Open house wasn't too bad too. heh. 'Helped out' on Friday then Saturday. Got students ask 1 or 2 questions idk how to answer man. & SHIT, ISAAC QUESTIONED ME MMP STUFF, I TOTALLY FORGOT AND DON'T KNOW HOW ANSWER LAHHH. GG GG. so I ran away from our booth :/ ATTACHMENT SURE DIE :(((

WENT TO DO SPECS AND CONTACTS! Heh thanks Fabian (:
My new specs gonna be 85% the same as the current one. LOL.
OHHH. I tried archery again yesterday and I COULD MAKE IT LAH. average 8 or 9 :D
After helping out, went town with Gerald, attempted to get Jeremy's present BUT FAIL :( shouldn't have agreed exchange gift :/ OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUST BAKE HIM MANY MANY COOKIES? HAHAHA.

Okay, I seriously dk what to blog therefore I am crapping and that's cause MY LIFE IS BORINGGGGGG :(

alright, therefore a cute picture of myself. HAHAHAHA
I know I am thick skin but AGREE RIGHT?! :D

yes, confirm got a few I know agrees ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE.

freaking bored therefore I shall blog.
After CT ended, I spammed myself with driving and more driving. BBDC's becoming my 2nd home. BUT still went out with friends huh.

20th Dec:
ZOOOOOO & Night Safari with dearest GMTAs (:

NOT BAD. Going to the Zoo again after... 10years?! LOL.
However, never ever go Zoo & Night Safari on the same day please. TIRING TTM.
I nearly fell asleep on the tram when everything was dark. But the performance was good. HEH.

22nd Dec:
IKEA MEATBALLS & HOTDOG FOR LUNCH. with Jeremy & Gerald.
Off to town, shopped for baby Jervin's present and SAW SAM. Hah then also go PS buy stuff and rot. ROT ROT ROT. ROT UNTIL REACH TANGLIN MALL AT THE WRONG TIMING AND WE MISSED THE 'SNOW' :(

23th Dec:
driving then out with Hamdan. Wanted to borrow a book from Far East Plaza but the shop closed down -.- off to Tanglin Mall again. FREAKING HARD TO SHOOT. Bad lightings, argh. GAVE UP.

25th Dec:
Merry Christmas at home. Awesome food & half of the time trying to shoot baby Jervin. THANKS TO DPG. I got many presents too, as usual. AHAHAHH. & ANGBAOs ALSO. Altogether more than 200bucks. HEHEHEHEE.

GUESS WHY HE GAVE THIS FACE.

He was shitting in his pampers 'in the progress' DAMN CUTE.



26th Dec:
Met Hamdan again. Fun chilling out (: awesome htht session. I LOVE TALKS LIKE THAT! :D

27th Dec:
CLASS BBQ AT ECP. Simple & nice. ENJOYED.

29th Dec:
MET FABIAN! back from CHINA. HAHAHA. He couldn't stop talking about his trip & OMG HIS CURLY HAIR. HAHAHAHAHA. Really made me laugh. Wanted to go Sentosa to shoot BUT IN THE END, less than 30mins, RAINED SO FREAKING HEAVILY -.- GAVE UP AGAIN. goodness. COTTON ONNNN. don't have my freaking size :( damn sad.

this picture got feel huh. LOL


30th Dec:
WENT TO WORK! :D 4hours 40bucks. JOB: PHOTOGRAPHER. Cannot stand it man, so many of the sec1s are so childish. Maybe I was once like that too. HAHAH. but still, awesome shit. THANKS HUISHAN & WENQI (:
Made my way down to commonwealth, met Gerald then CABBED TO HOLLAND VILLAGE. Super retarded but we were late so. HAHA. AND I KNOW SEE TOH, you are gonna make me feel guilty with your 30mins :/
XIAOLONGBAO BUFFET! Jeremy Chin is seriously super freaking noisy but I still enjoyed the company :D hehehee.
Walked all the way from there to Queenstown, Gerald and Justin left.
Continue till Dawson, Jeremy and Sam left.
THEN I CONTINUE WALKING HOME. 90mins or less journey. COOLNESS. I LIKE :D:D

HAHAHAHAHAH I SUPER LOVE THIS PICTURE. retarded ttm.



YES, sabo-ing these guys.
& I actually forgot to take photos of XIAOLONGBAO :(

31st, today, driving in the day, KOI with Fabian & ROTTING AT HOME NOWWW. Nothing to do. BLAH. Steamboat dinner soon. Hehehee, my family love me so much! I was complaining how I countdown with myself every year so this year they decided to start dinner later and last till midnight :D

OKAY.
reflecting back throughout this year.
Up & downs. I wouldn't say it sucks real bad or it's freaking awesome but more or less, I should be contented (:
However, friendships & relationships, both freaking screwed. I really don't know what should I do to make things better :(

The best period of my life this year - August till October.
During YEP, I let everything go, be myself, went wild, made awesome friends & I REALLY ENJOYED.
YOG break till before school opened was awesome too. MEMORIES, that's all I can say.
THANKS GUYS. You know who you are ((((:

SOOOO MANY THINGGGGGS.

All I remember is,

27th Nov - BBSG door to door food collection. FUN EXPERIENCE.
28th Nov - Took photos for NPCO. thanks Huishannnn.

'FREE STARBUCKS' on Thursday. GREEN TEA ICE BLEND FTW.
I PASSED MY BTT LAST FRIDAY NIGHT (Y) but wow, this freaking test is worth nearly 50bucks.
FIRST practical driving yesterday. COOL MANZZZ. but so screwed. I HATE THE CLUTCH! so hard to control! :(

Loft life now. CHIONG MTSY & VT FIRST.
I'll solve the doubts after CT. HAHAHA.
and WOW YOU ACTUALLY GOT uhhuh.
are you acting dumb or are you just purely stupid, seriously?

GOODBYE

BOO. Cannot really recall what happened leh. So whatever comes out from my mind, I WILL JUST TYPE.

Wednesday, I met Fabian in the late afternoon. I WANTED PIZZA HUT BUT FORGOT IT WAS PH :( damn sad. So in the end we went for AIJISEN, again. Slacked around then off to meet SYAH. Jayni joined in a while later, shop shop and back home.

Thursday, SAW CALVIN AT LEVEL 5 TOO. But he couldn't recognise me! I messaged him AND YEAH I WAS RIGHT. HAHAHA. SO HAPPY. We started spamming each other by smsing then he was SOOO NICEEE to get me Subway for lunch! SO SWEET. AWESOME MENTOR/SENIOR. Hehehee. Lunch at Makan Place with girls and guys.
Jeremy Chin: So your school (mgs) got male toilets?
HAHAHAHA.

Friday, normal in the day. School ended earlier, off with Huishan. TOOK FREAKING WRONG BUS FOR THE SECOND TIME. SAME BUS SOMEMORE. STUPID 61. Still, I got my TIONG BAHRU BAO & MORE in the end :D Vivo with chin. HTHT. Not exactly too, but HAHAHAHA HE SHOULD JOIN EE GOT TALENT. IMITATE PEOPLE. (Y) & free ride home from his brother. hehee

GOOD GIRL AGAIN DURING WEEKENDS :)
But now my room setting changed. DAMN SAD. I don't like.

TODAY. YAT SUDDENLY SMS ME. Soooo we went for a short 'photography' trip. However, it was more like a slacking and BIKE TRIP FOR ME. HAHAHA SO FUN!!! SHIOK!
Heh. From Home --> 'Henderson Waves' --> Vivo --> Holland :D


Waited for Fabian at Holland. ICE CREAM & Wendy's.
eeww, I still don't like chocolate mint.
He was soooo nice to be my model for photography assignment. THANKS AH. HAHAHA. My parents couldn't stop laughing at him. LOL.
I see a smile on myself today (:



告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
放弃你 忘记你 只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
但为何 到如今 我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你 假装不在意
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

How true? So true...

A little screwed up thanks to LPA. AT LEAST WE ARE DONE. Shall not care anymore.
BAKED COOKIES AND STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE LAST MONDAY. Not too satisfied this round but people still love them. ESPECIALLY MY COOKIES. hehehee.
SHALL BAKE AGAIN NEXT MONTH.

LAST WEDNESDAY.
Mini birthday surprise for HUISHAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN.

FINALLY 18 SO IT'S TIME FOR US TO GO CLUBBING AND BUY 4D. HAHAHAHAAH. kidding.
LOVE YOU, SWEETHEART.
Hope your love for ahem will maintain. HAHA wth am I talking about.

After school went to buy Tiong Bahru BAO with birthday girl, Chin and Gerald. NICE MANZZZ. Bring me back memories, I don't know why. Then we walked around Tiong Bahru... SO FUN.

LAST THURSDAY.

ISLAND CREAMERY WITH FOOSBALL GANG. Laughing time again.
Super fun seeing the two girls correcting G's english. HAHAHAHA. It's not about the english, it's the way they say it. LOL
I got companied to the clinic to sign some form and chilling plus htht session again. Time passes soooo quickly like that. Hahaha
OHHH HOW CAN I FORGET. I RECEIVED MY SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM HTET PAING, EVONNE AND KUN HAO! Hehehee. SO SWEET OF THEM! lovelovelove!

LAST FRIDAY.
Went home after school for dinner and put my bag then off to PS to meet Jayni, Sam and Hakim for Chris and Nickie's performance. G and Chin joined in around 1030pm and we walked from there to Esplanade. Laughing madness again. HAHAHAHA JEREMY WAS CUTE. Having oral at Esplanade and really fail manzz. Managed to catch bus at 1230am to home. BAD GIRL RIGHT.

However, I was a pretty good girl during the weekends.

MONDAY.
Came school, met Gerald and Chin for lunch at C4. WAH first time visiting there after renovation. Window shopped at JP after that. DURIAN FTW. Back to school for PSP and it was basically slacking but I better get my CCA point(s). HAHAHA.

BUT NOW, WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TOMORROW? Since there's no more RWS stayover :(

&this is what you do when you have nothing to do in class.

3 days of school this week.
School was normal.

BUT THURSDAY EVENING TILL NIGHT WAS DAMN FUNNY AND FUN!!!
After school, went to look for Isaac Ong to chitchat then he asked us to go for FREE DINNER :P SHIOK. Okay, laughed too much while eating. HAHAHA. Huishan & Eugene left then the rest went for International Idol while waiting for Isaac. FREE FOOD AGAIN, but not enough time so HAD FREE ICE CREAM.
Saw so many MDE seniors nearby where we were sitting. I STILL MISS MDE DAYS :(
FINALLY at 8plus pm, Isaac was ready & headed to Mambo for pool. Guys played, girls rot. After awhile, Gary, Syah, Jayni, Samanatha & I went to play table football & HAHAHAHA. SHOULD VIDEO DOWN OUR PLAYING PROCESS MANZZ! DAMMMMMNNNN FUNNNNN. I jumped, we screamed, we shouted :/ the whole Mambo could hear us :/ and they hate us. HAHAHAH.
Stayed till 11pm, went KAP for supper then waited for daddy till 140am just for a free ridev home -.-
OH WELL, I HAD FUN. HEHHH.

OOOOH stupid GARY YEN LOST MY NERD SPECS :( NO SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY RIGHT. tskkkk sooooo, we met on Friday to get replacement. Shopped at Bugis Street and bought 2 exact same pairs for 10bucks! Slacked around, walked to Funan to find Jeremy then headed to Clarke Quay to meet GMTA! (: BBQ CHICKEN FOR DINNER!

After dinner we walked all the way to Esplanade, wanted to sit flyer but NO MORE PROMOTION:( soooo, walked to MBS & left near 11pm.

ikea meatballs for lunch today with FABIAN! (: Came home around 2plus and slept for another 2hours. FREAKING TIRED. I DON'T KNOW WHY. and I am slacking all the wayyyy till now. HAVEN'T DONE A SINGLE SHIT OF WORK.
I NEED MOTIVATION! :((((



還是原來那個我　不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾　遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容
不算什麼　愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯　早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好　這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去　痛到　受不了　想到　快瘋掉
死不了就還好
我寂寞寂寞就好　你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會　笨到　忘不了　賴著　不放掉
人本來就寂寞的　借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你　是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用　每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼　什麼都沒有
早點看破　才看的見以後

好久沒聽到一首歌能感動我到想哭...
Deeply in love with the lyrics (Y)
However, I am lost.
我根本不知道我在想甚麼
我不知道我的心想傳達的意思是甚麼
我不知道我應該往哪邊走...
請給我一個指南針 指點我應該往哪一條路走..

“愛”一個人，真的好痛苦。
Very Lost.